I am 24 years old. I am a photographer. I am a designer. I'm here to share my journey to becoming fit. I need a way to vent and people to talk to. On May 7th, my husband and I decided to start Weight Watchers, as our own efforts were without results.
Highest weight - 205-210 (at age 15) up to size 18 US
Starting - 191lbs, size 14/16 jeans
Current weight - 174
Current pant size-12/14
Ultimate Goal - Weight Watchers says my goal weight should be no less than 113. I want to be healthy. I want to be fit. I want to be strong. I don't want to be skinny. I'm not sure what weight I will be at when I look at myself and see what I am fighting for. 120? 130?
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
My husband already got moved to a different department at his new job. This department works overtime a lot. I am already by myself at home from 5-11:30. I am so glad he found a job so quickly, but I am already missing my time with him. He is getting paid a lot more than he did at his last job, and when he gets on full-time, he will make even more. We have very little debt, so we can save a lot. But…I have had a very stressful and worrisome day. I have no one to talk to that will understand, so I am alone with my thoughts for hours. I am feeling a little overwhelmed with decisions about my business. I need him here.
I am fully, mentally consumed by my need to be a photographer. I am painfully bored at my day job. I am nowhere near a camera, and this makes me sad. Typing obituaries and arrest reports will not be good enough much longer.
I have decided to try and specialize in senior photography (high school seniors, not coffee discounts seniors)
Why senior photography?
When I graduated high school, I wasn’t very confident. I didn’t like my hair, I didn’t like the way I talked, I didn’t think I was as pretty as the other girls. I want to show young adults how awesome they are. They all have their own, unique self and they are all beautiful. I want to show them what everyone else sees when they look at them. If I’d had that when I was 17, it would have been an amazing ego boost for me. Seniors are at a time in their life when confidence in oneself is critical and can change their whole future. A little self-assurance can go a long way. I want, more than anything, to hear someone say, “I didn’t know I was that pretty.”
I AM SORRY BUT THIS IS WHY I AM EMBARRASSED TO BE AN AMERICAN. IF A HIJAB THAT DORNS THE AMERICAN FLAG PATTERN IS NOT ACCEPTABLE BUT SKIMPY ASS BIKINIS OR WEARING THE FUCKING ACTUAL FLAG IS ACCEPTABLE, JUST BECAUSE THE PERSON IS WHITE, I WANT TO FUCKING THROW UP.
(I don’t have a thing against Audrey Kitching, she was just merely and example).
But this fucking disgusts me right here. It makes me want to say, fuck this country and its racism and double standards.
I LITERALLY FUCKING CAN NOT
Give her a bullet to the head for walking down the street, minding her own business?? And they think SHE’S the terrorist.
Wow, and the Middle Easterners are considered the terrorists? I have personally never read so much violence even in a fictional book. Horrible. I feel sick to my stomach.
I’d tell her I loved it and ask where she got it. I’m actually looking for a flag patterned scarf or something similar for photo shoots :D
I haven’t shown you all my arms. They are my very least favorite part of my body. I am not a big girl, but I have rolls on my arms. I hate them. I hate wearing tank tops but it is hot in Alabama.
Spent part of the evening cleaning and organizing and switching out pictures. Yes that is a t-Rex lamp.
It’s like adopting a puppy that will never pee in the floor.
5’4
155 lbsI’ve given up trying to live up to some “perfect” image. Its hard most days. But today, I’m going to like my body.
well you are perfect
so deal with it
lady boner
Srsly though. Pictures like this make me feel like I don’t have so far to go.
photographer stuck at a desk job
More and more, I find myself unhappy to be behind a desk. I like how flexible my schedule can be. I like that I get paid to do very little while I’m trying to get my own business started. I do not, however, like that I’m not working for me and out doing shoots every week and working on developing my style and learning everything I possibly can every second of the day.
Also, I hate hate HATE sitting on my ass all day. Can’t stand it. I would rather be out scouting for locations on my bike all day, TBH. Co-workers are annoying, the newspaper business is pretty much in the toilet, there is no future for this business. Sad, yes, but true.
I want to be working for me without fear that, next month, I might not do any business at all. What then? I wish there was a bigger market for the kind of photography I want to do. I wish I could afford to go to the workshop I want (I would give my left baby toe). Sometimes, I just want to scream. 2 days a week, I sit at this computer with literally nothing to work on, but I can’t go home. I have to have a pay check. These feelings are why I will never give up on my dream.
In one month, I have lost 9 pounds :) I am down to 171 this morning, and wearing my favorite jeans.
Fit Bit says I have burned 1200 calories. It’s 4pm. Yay, the joys of a desk job :|
:’(
Didn’t track this weekend, had 2 photo sessions Saturday, somehow managed to lose weight :\ Back to it this week. Husband started 2nd shift today, so I am on my own from 5-midnight. Going to get stuff done! (hopefully exercise and housework)
TMI Warning
I gained a pound this week, but I also haven’t pooped since I ate that half a burger that made me feel so terrible. So, I probably didn’t actually gain, I’m probably just full of crap.
OMYGOOODDDDDD when we get paid tomorrow, I get to buy a lense. Oh sweet Jesus! Also, I spelled lens with an E on the end. Is that a European thing to do?
